why soo ??

~ Walking down the hall with her head held high, every hair is in its place, sees a friend and she waves hi, wearing a smile on her perfect face. Friendly, smart, and beautiful, everyone adores this girl. Seemingly content, her head's in a whirl. Inside she's unhappy, and doesn't know why. She lays in her bed at night and cries. She doesn't know what causes the tears; how could this princess have insecurities or fears? She has it all. A pretty smile, many friends, a great guy, the newest trends, her family has money, she gets good grades, has her own car, and her makeup never fades. Always looking happy, every single day, but inside she's feeling a different way. This is wonder girl, she's everyone's dream, but things aren't always what they seem.

Sometimes people just don't understand...

hmmmm,..... She says she doesn't care, but her eyes tell a different story.... says  a personn... ~ Behind my smile is a hurting heart. Behind my laugh, I'm falling apart. Look closely at me and you will see, the girl I am...isn't me..........   people  try taking 100s..  of faluts  in uuu.. but der  never  realisee  dat  Have they ever lived my life, have they ever spent one minute in my shoes? If they  haven't, then tell me why they  judge me like theyy do......and .There is only one rain cloud in the sky...and it's raining on me. Somehow I'm not surprised... ~!!!!!!!

Why do people have to lose things to find out what these small things really mean?

sumtimes..people   dont understand  the value of  a person unless  and untill  they loose that personn..wen u care a lot abt a person and always wants the best for himm and always wishess gud for him ... that other personn juz ignoress ...  wen ur juz  bein ova possessive abt that  perosn  cause u  juz  lovveeee..  him  tooooooooo mucchhhh... dat person  juzz feels  dat ur  juz a big pain to him .... a person who would  care  a lot for uu love uuu  a lott and be honest and  frank wid uu ..  are rare  to find  and  are onli   found  once in ur  whole liifee..  and u end up ignorinn  dat one special  person who could  have turnd ur life into a spring feild... but once dat  person  who loves u dis mucchh is  gone  away  frm  ur  life  ..  and gone soo  far  dat  u can neva  eva reach her againn/.... a million words wouldnt bring her bak ..  neither  would  a  millon tears  ,,, i knoe cause i have tried  and i knoe cause i have cried.. :(.. ;'(... You can close your eyes to things you don’t want to see, but you can’t close your heart to things you don’t want to feel..and  for  sure da  day  u loose dat person  forever  u  would  neva  get her bakk.. and u have to tak it  as it is  a fact  dat u  did dis  to ur self  by juz  ignorin  her wen  she  was  around   to tak care of u and love uu  and.. lend  a  sholder  wen  u cried.. Someone can walk into your life and it is not until after they walk out that you realize that they were even there.. .and  then  there z  no use sittin on a  rock cryinn and sayinn. "You have been the treasure in my hand. You have been the one who always stood beside me. So unaware, I foolishly .. i juz passed u by ignorinn u and one day i realised i hurt and and came to sayy sorry but u wer  gone...I’ve seen fire and I’ve seen rain. I’ve seen sunny days that I thought would never end. I’ve seen lonely times when I could not find a friend, but I always thought that I’d see you again. ".....

saaaaaawwwwwwwwwwwiieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....... :(

imm.. soooo  sorry  for hurting uu.. im so  sorryy  for  makinggg  u cryyy... i never ment to  hurt uuuu.... :(.....  itz  juz dat  i  reelii  care abt uuu..  I'm sorry but I'll try now
I'm sorry if its too late
I'm sorry but I have to try
I'm sorry for being so bad
I'm sorry for being so down
I'm sorry for not understanding you when I wasn't even around'........



i'm sorry I let you fall that time
I'm sorry for losing your heart
I'm sorry I wish things where ok
I'm sorry for being a idiot
I'm sorry, I 'm sorry

 eeyyyy  okka  sariii  navachuu kada.. ......................

you..

 

IT  soo  hurts me to see u hurt... it kills me  wen i see u in  pain or cryy.. i donno yy.. but  i end in agonyyy....my mind goes   blank.. i  cant think a  single thing excpet how to bring bak  the smile on ur face......   ur  soo my life that i just cant bare...anythinn  happen to uu... at last  a single word to end it is...  i would be there  wen  ur   wit me.............................. 

hate dis part !!!!!!!!!!!

 

i juzz  hateeee  it  wen the freakin  net gets   disconnected    suddenlyy and  dosent work  for ages!!!!!!   ufff...  man !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! huhuhuh... !!!!!!!!!!!!

my sweett doggg.. :) sophiee..

:)....... there is  an  old  sayin " a dog is a  mans best friend.. " ...so  do i say  my swweeeettt  swweeeeettt  doggiee is myy bestyyy...  itzz sooo  sweeett  .... cute felllooww.//  hiss  soo hyperrr.. !!!!  man   if he  jumps  on e i would be  nowhere... lol i  neva  knew   even dogs  get jealous  if  the person it loves  go zz  and plays  wit  sum other dog ....  hezz  suchh  a  sweettyy  .. i juzz  miiss  his fuunnyy sweeet trickss.... ":)...... .... hez in indiaa now  and i  miss himm aroundd  sooo muchhh ..... :(  .. "sigh "..... anywayzz ... im soonn  goonnna seee  himm :)

 

lol  after he getz  his  snack he   ends up hidin  under my legs!!!!! 

friend.. :)

A Friend is a Treasure A friend is someone we turn to,          
when our spirits need a lift.
A friend is someone we treasure,
for our friendship is a gift.
A friend is someone who fills our lives,
with beauty, joy and grace.
And make the world we live in,
a better and happier place.



A best friend
is always there,
whether you need advice,
or a pep talk,
or even a shoulder to cry on.
A best friend
listens with her heart
and is always honest with you,
even though the truth
may not be
what you want to hear.
A best friend
knows all your secrets,
understands your fears
shares  your dreams.
A best friend
never stops believing in you
even if you give up
on yourself.

valentines day

 

hmmm   valentines day  commonlyy known  to be celebrated only by couples.....  is veryy   famous around.. :).... but i say  the wholee   feelin  abt bein  celebrated   only ... couples  is  sooo wrongg/ :P ..!!!!!  love a four letter  word is  a feeling shared by every one...  a feeling  shared by    guy to  a  gal... a  brother to sister... between   parents and there childernnn..  and   people  in ur familyy.. and  friends.... and lotz  more.... :)... i see sum  people  who  end  up  .. so  weird on valentines  day  showinn off  which is  soo not true....  :P lol.... i feel   when  theres   true between  two persons  every day  of  der life would be  a  valentines dayyy.... 

on my valentines day on feb 14 th  2010 .. many things  happened  .. my mom and dad  gave  a swwett  teady bear  like  dis..to me and my brother . and  expressed  there  bundles of love  for us.. :)

one  of ma  close  frnd  opene up franklyy.. and  spoke  how  close im  to himm. which  was so swwettt of himm.. :)...  and  many one of my best  told me howw muchhh   close frnd  am i  to her and  how i  helped  her through out our 2 yrs of frndshipp and  how  much she  trusts  me and  cares  abt me and  how she can   trust  and  rely on me...  :)   dis  was day  .. i  felt so  that valentiness  day not only belongs  to couples and   bf and gf but everyonee.. so  guyzz and  galzz....  :) always  keep  smilinnn.. and makee  a 1000  ppl  smile  :)

:) ... :)... things called love.. :)

I love the way you look at me,
Your eyes so bright I love the way you make me so happy,
And the ways you show you care.
I love the way you say, "I Love You,"
And the way you're always there.'


In the morning when we wake,
I want to see you smile.
Tell me that you love me,
And that its all worth while






I love the way your close to me ...
Always sending chills down my spine.
I love that you are with me,
And glad that you are mine.

.

:) :) :) :)

Like a bird  that  flies in the  morning  light or a  butterfly in the spring when ur spirit  rides in the winds of hope ... ull find ur wings for ur always free  to begin again and  ur always free  to believe . when  u find the place that  ur heart belongs ull  never leave ...love is like a  melody one that i wil always treasure...  courage is the key  that opens every door.. though u may not know wer ur  steps may lead and  it may not show at the start ........when u put a foward   step with faith and  trustt .... ull  find  ur destiny

myyyy sweeett bro ajay...

all  for one and  one for all. hes  my brother  and his  my friend   my wellwisher...what fun   we  the share and  every word  he say shows  his sweet love for me...... bro   ur the  best  ra... in my life  he has played  a major   role in   guiding me  and leadinn me  in the  right  path...... he z so weird  and funny  u never  gett to knoe  wen he  gets  angryy and  wen  funny lolo.. such a  weirdoo...  and  every  day  to play  around  wit himm  i need  to take his  beatings  as fees  looololl....  itz   so  fun wen  his  arounndd.... his  soo  practical and open  minded  toward  thought  of  life,,....  he  has  guided many people  and he has  a heart  of an angel.. lol  i get so  suprised seein his patience... hezz  an amazinn  dancer.. :) wit  a grt positive   attitude... :)...  and veryyy  sarcasticc.. :P  ,.. ur   rule  broo.. :) urr  bangaramm  :P lollol ..ohh  by   da  way  i love  messin around  wit  himm  ":P  but "sigh"  i end   up  gettinn  bashings!!!:P lolol

my bangarammm.. :) .....

A close person  is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out.this  guyz  name is nishant...  he becamee  a  sweet  friend of  mine.2 yrs ago .. :)... he guides meee... in all ways.... wen i go wrongg... ...  he   becamme  soo  close to me  that  todayy he  is the  onlyy closest  personn  to my heartt..... he  is  suchh a sweett heart that  he  sits  the whole  day listening   to da  borinn speeches  i  give himmm.. lol....  he takes   care  of me like a princess..... he zz... one person u can   trust and  rely onn..  his  character  is sooo like siddhu  in the movie   bomarilluu.. !!! lol !!....  no matterr wat  happens   he never  fails  to make me  smile.... :)he zz  everythinn  too  me  a  sweet  friend   a  good  guide and more   thann  anythinggg.. :)..........too  me .. nishuu nuvvuu  na  swweeeett sweeettt bangarammmm..  :)......

I HATEEEEEE MATHS !!!!!!!!!!!! :p !!!!!!!!!!!!!

If  and if  at all  god grants  me a wish  ... i   would  request him  to  screww the   great  person  who created  sumthing called maths!!!!!  " no offence math lovers!!1 " man  i literally  sleep of in  every math  class  !!!!! the  book  math is  only ment  to create  problems in my life cause  the  book itself contains  problemss!!!!  lol  ..!!!!"sigh" ..!!! the  day  i end  up gettin  a  90 in  math  the whole  world  would  blow up in suprise!!! lol kiddin !!!!   anywayzz  finallyy  gettinn  rid  of math   foreva in  2 months  yippeee..!!!!!!!!

life in kennedy :)

 

sweet memories that never fade away as if they have happened  yesterday .In  this life of mine that  passes  by every day my grade 10 was the best thing that  every happened to me. I studied my grd 10 in Kennedy  high which was a boarding school. the days  that i spent there  wer  full of  fun  and till  today i remember  every single moment i spend der fighting  with the guys of our class  , playing  pranks on each other ,having a hard  time  waking up early in the morning at 5.00 !!!!! man  wat   a  pain !!! "sigh"and going late  to morning exercises  and  getting  royale screwed  for that by  running 10 laps in  a  humongous   ground!!!! bunking math study hours and  sleepin off  in  dorms!!! studyinn late nites and sleepinn of   da next  day in da middle of exams  ..!!! :P ohhh and i  remember da  students  who  wer living in the hostel  wer not allowed to  have junk food  with dem so  wen ever we use  to go outta  da hostel  we  use to cum bak wit  piizaa  boxes  stuffed in  our  bag  of clothes lolol

!!.....and worst of all  is copyinnn  da  actions of teacherss..and   pillow  fights  with  friends  ohh man  wen  da week end  comes our girls   dorms   use to turn into  beauty parlourss mann lol... every day of  ours  lifes  was like  an  new adventure  full of funn.... :) but at  last  at the   end of the  day  we  use  to learn  sumthin new... and   ohh ya   we cried a lot  on our  farewell ...from one  side i  was  relli happy that  at last i was  done wit schooling life... but from another side it was  a lot of pain  to digest  that  the  people  who i  literally lived  wit  for  a  year  juz  like  a   family and itz  sweet  home  was  departing in a  few more  days... this  school and it teahcers so   equal  to parents   thought  me lotz  abt  life and it  importance and  its  moral  values..... and  so  would i  never  forget 2007- 2008   MY LIFE OF GRADE 10 .... :) :'( MISS IT  LOADS.... but  stiill   im so  glad  that  i lived 1 yr of my life in this  place,,... :)